Saturday, April 28, 2007

And what a week it has been!
Although I missed two half-days of school, (on Tuesday-where the lessons are so impt!,and Wednesday-where the days are short and sweet!) I must admit that I learnt alot.
I've been having some adventitious feeling...a mixture of happiness,bitterness and basically confusion. Just like the weather this few days, ever so unpredictable. ):

1. odac:
this time, went to DFAC for CIP for NVPS P5 camp--an annual thing--but a slightly different affair. FOr one thing, being a senior now, we were supposed to 'step back, and take a look at what's going on around you'(quote Mr R) rather than getting involved. So yes, it was marginally less tiring that sec 3s were allowed to 'slack', but the weather was simply irritating, and the after-effects of motion sickness was baddddd! Time seemed to fly really fast, and on the bus back from DFAC on the second night reminded me of why I love odac so much. Everytime I (we) feel so discouraged and tired and all, there would always be something that tells me (us)"look! aren;t you having fun?" Bus trips always seem to bond all of us together. Fun,'torture'= odac
anyway it's my friends in odac that see me in all my states: my ugliest, most tired, loudest/quietest, craziest etc etc...

2. emotional wise, it's been crazy the past few days. Sometimes, I do realise, I'm prone to over-thinking. When I'm down and out, I just seem to think of bad things, and overanalyse certain issues, leaving myself suspicious and sad. Of course, this leads me to be moody and emo. emo, so hate that word. urgh. so of course, I have to apologise to those who saw that side of me this week, especially xinyu. \=

3. when you help someone, you learn alot. enough said.

4. everytime i go out with anqi, and we have those crazy conversations, it just brings back fond memories of lower secondary life. From there, I realise that people change, and that just makes me sad. I love change, I hate change.

say, I'm maturing alot.
but of course, I'm still the same. Just a little different.
i wonder...

bear foot;
11:41 PM