Monday, May 14, 2007
Happy Bithday Dad!
Glad that your eye is better.
Damn I feel like a hypocrite already.
Why?
'cos here I am wish my father a happy birthday etc etc, in my heart I'm secretly irked
with him.
X=
Actually I'm irked by both my parents.
I think they've been treating me somehwat differently since MYEs.
Perhaps it is because of the fact that I declared I wouldn't do well for this term?
But hey I think I can seek redemption in the fact that my parents aren't any better than me.
They always assure me that it's absolutely alright if I don't do well, as long as I've tried my very best.
But they never mean it.
A few days later they would tell me to work harder, and not
ling shi bao fo jiao.
I never! I think I work reasonably hard, and have always tried my very best.
I know that they think I'm not working hard enough and I should reduce the time spent in
front of the computer and the telly, and direct my attention to more ' worthwhile ' matters.
They keep telling me that if I work hard now, I would have a better life in future, and they too
will have a better life. They say no one guided them, and that my sis and I are
extremely fortunate to have parents who care.
Yah sure.
First they tell us that life is not about paper-chasing, and that I should strive to improve my emotional
quotient (they think I'm prone to mood swings and have lousy communication skills).
Then they tell me that I (and my sister--my bro ain't old enough yet) have to work hard and be a lawyer or
something equally respectable. ( cos in real life, money matters.)
I tried telling my mum I may drop physics.
And she rolls her eyes and walks away coldly.
My dad says it would be foolish.
damn it, I just don't get physics alright?I bet if I read an article about poly out loud, they're glance at me and give me a mildly suspicious look.
Personally, Iim okay with polys even though I have never considered a course in poly.
Maybe I've just got to stop complaining.
But frankly, I feel there's a big gaping hole between me and my parents.
( They think I don't talk in school because at home, I'm no longer the talkative 5 year old that I was. *laughs incredulously* )
